Key Minutes in the Senate Testament of Christine Blasey Ford and Brett Kavanaugh

Brett Kavanaugh’s accuser, Christine Blasey Ford, testified under oath to the Senate Judiciary Committee on Thursday in Washington, followed by Kavanaugh, in a hearing that threatened to derail his nomination to the Supreme Court. Below are some of the most important moments in the hearing, in reverse chronological order, with the most recent at the top of the page.

Video of Dramatic Opening Statements From Ford and Kavanaugh

C-SPAN’s live video of the hearing has come to an end, but the broadcaster has posted the opening statements of both Christine Blasey Ford and Brett Kavanaugh on YouTube. Ford delivered her remarks almost exactly as written on Thursday morning.

Speaking after Ford’s affecting testimony, Kavanaugh abandoned the prepared remarks released beforehand and instead delivered a long, angry attack on the Democrats than was nearly three times as long as that of his accuser.

“There Is Likely to Be as Much Doubt as Certainty,” Flake Says, “We’ll Never Move Beyond That”

The hearing has now adjourned, but before it did Sen. Jeff Flake, an Arizona Republican, summed up his party’s strategy quite clearly, reminding his colleagues that a day of dueling testimonies, with no investigation, offered no clear evidence of who was lying. “There is likely to be as much doubt as certainty going out of this room today,” Flake said. “There is doubt, we’ll never move beyond that.”

Republicans Stop Having Prosecutor Ask Questions After She Presses Kavanaugh on July 1, 1982 Calendar Note

As several observers have noted, Republican senators have reclaimed their time from Rachel Mitchell, the sex crimes prosecutor they brought in to conduct questioning on their behalf.

The change in tactics came just after Mitchell zeroed in on Kavanaugh’s entry on his calendar for the night of Thursday, July 1, 1982.

The entry recorded Kavanaugh’s plan to “Go to Timmy’s for Skis, w/ Judge, Tom, PJ, Bernie, Squi.”

The slang word “brewskis” was a common term for “brews” or beers in the 1980s, so this appears to be about a planned drinking session on the Thursday before the Fourth of July weekend.

In her prepared testimony, Christine Blasey Ford said that she was assaulted in the summer of 1982 at a house party attended by her friend Leland Ingham, as well as “Brett Kavanaugh, Mark Judge, P. J. Smyth and one other boy whose name I cannot recall.”

Kavanaugh’s calendar says that he was with Judge, and P.J. on July 1 that summer. In response to questioning from Rachel Mitchell, Kavanaugh said that “Squi” was a nickname for a high school friend, Chris Garrett.

Last week, a Republican operative named Ed Whelan suggested in a long Twitter thread that Ford might have been assaulted not by Kavanaugh but by the friend known as Squi, and argued that the attack described by Ford took place in a home that seemed to match the one inhabited by Squi at the time.

During questioning by Mitchell on Thursday, Ford said that she had been introduced to Kavanaugh and Judge by the boy known as Squi. Although she refused to identify him by name, to respect his privacy, Ford said that she and had socialized with the boy for a few months that year before the attack.

“He was somebody that, I will use the phrase ‘I went out with,’” Ford said. “I wouldn’t say ‘date.’ I would say ‘went out with’ for a few months. That was how we termed it at the time.”

“He also was a member of the same country club, and I knew his younger brother as well.”

So, far from establishing his innocence, Kavanaugh’s handwritten calendar appears to offer a possible date for a binge drinking session on which the assault could plausibly have taken place.

In her testimony, Ford also said that she ran into Mark Judge about six to eight weeks after the attack while he was working in a local supermarket. If Judge worked at the supermarket in August of 1982, an attack on the first night of July that year would be consistent with the timeline of Ford’s recollection.

By Pressing Kavanaugh to Endorse an FBI Investigation, Democrats Fail to Ask Obvious Questions

Several observers have expressed frustration with the Democrats for wasting their time by calling for Kavanaugh to endorse an FBI investigation instead of asking him more probing questions.

It remains remarkable that Kavanaugh has been allowed to repeat again and again that Christine Blasey Ford’s high school friend Leland Keyser had “refuted” her account of the party she was assaulted at. Viwers of this hearing would have no idea that Keyser had in fact told The Washington Post while she does not recall the event, she believes Ford’s allegation.

Senators have also failed to tackle Kavanaugh’s bizarre claim that his calendar notes from the time are in any way a complete record of his activities in the summer of 1982.

Grassley Says Kavanaugh’s Emotion Is Understandable, Given “Extreme Charges”

My colleague Akela Lacy has video of Sen. Chuck Grassley saying, during a recess, that Kavanaugh’s emotional tone is to be expected, given the “extreme charges” against him.

It is increasingly obvious that the Republican strategy is to frame the accusation that Kavanaugh sexually assaulted Ford as a teenager as an unsolvable mystery — calling it an “uncorroborated” claim, despite refusing to call a named witness — in which both are victims and no one should be treated as guilty.

Kavanaugh’s High School Classmates Suggest He Lied About Yearbook Terms

After Kavanaugh said under oath that the terms “boofed” and “Devil’s Triangle” on his Yearbook page referred to flatulence and a drinking game, a New York Times reporter, David Enrich, said that his high school classmates had said otherwise.

Enrich has not yet elaborated on what the classmates said the terms mean, but it appears that someone just edited a Wikipedia entry for one of the terms to include Kavanaugh’s definition from a computer with an IP address in Congress.

Belligerent Kavanaugh Returns, Badgering Democratic Senators About *Their* Drinking

Asked by Sen. Sheldon Whitehouse, a Rhode Island Democrat, if his high school yearbook reference to being in a “Ralph Club” was a reference to vomiting from alcohol, Kavanaugh refuses to answer directly but says he’s known among his friends for having a weak stomach. As Whitehouse presses him to say if the vomiting was the result of drinking too much, Kavanaugh says, “I like beer.” He then interrupts the senator, badgering him to say, “What do you like to drink? Senator, what do you like to drink?”

Kavanaugh, perhaps inspired by President Trump’s strategy of throwing caution to the wind, acts the same way in response to questions about his history of drinking from Sen. Amy Klobuchar.

The hearing goes into recess again. To step back for a moment, the nakedly partisan nature of Kavanaugh’s behavior is remarkable. If he manages to get onto the court, he will have done so by abandoning all pretense of political neutrality.

Kavanaugh Refuses to Call for an FBI Investigation to Clear His Name

Pressed to agree to an F.B.I. investigation to clear his name by Sen. Dick Durbin, Kavanaugh refuses to do so.

Lindsey Graham then takes over the questioning, deciding not to cede his time to the prosecutor hired by the Republicans. He launches an impassioned defense of Kavanaugh, claiming that there is no basis for the allegations against him. With rage, he accuses the Democrats of using Christine Blasey Ford to destroy Kavanaugh’s reputation. The allegation appears to be part of a Republican strategy to claim that both Ford and Kavanaugh are victims of a Democratic plot.

“Boy you all want power,” Lindsey Graham says to the Democrats on the committee, “God I hope you never get it.”

As Hearing Resumes, Belligerent Kavanaugh Continues to Shout at Democrats, Dodging Questions About Mark Judge

Brett Kavanaugh continues his aggressive, partisan strategy after the break by repeatedly interrupting and arguing with Sen. Patrick Leahy, and manages to evade giving a straight answer to the question of whether or not the “Bart O’Kavanaugh” character in Mark Judge’s memoir is based on him.

Kavanaugh also dismissed Judge’s memoir as fiction, a claim not borne out by the book itself, as my colleague Peter Maass points out.

Kavanaugh Interrupts and Shouts at Feinstein, Abandoning Pretense of Judicial Restraint

Officially, this hearing is a kind of job interview for a lifetime appointment to the Supreme Court, but Brett Kavanaugh seems quite aware that his real task is to appeal to the partisan sentiments of Republican voters and the Republican senators who can confirm him as well as the watching, reality show president who could still withdraw his nomination and pick someone less tainted.

To that end, he abandons all pretense of presenting himself as a calm, rational person who could be entrusted with acting as a a neutral judge, and has even taken to interrupting and shouting at Sen. Dianne Feinstein, the ranking Democrat in the committee.

It remains to be seen how that strategy will play out to the nationwide audience, gripped by the hearing.

Kavanaugh Says He Never Passed Out From Drinking but Did Fall Asleep

In response to questions from Rachel Mitchell, the prosecutor questioning Kavanaugh on behalf of the Republicans, the nominee denies that he ever blacked out from drinking. He does, however, admit that he at times fell asleep after drinking.

He categorically denies ever having any sexual encounter with Christine Blasey Ford, and rules out the possibility that he might have done so while so inebriated that he would not remember.

Kavanaugh Accuses Democrats on Committee of Ruining His Career as a Basketball Coach

Kavanaugh Claims His Yearbook Was Filled With False Boasts

Choking back tears, Kavanaugh claims that all of the yearbook references that portray his high school years as fueled with alcohol and debauchery were merely attempts to “go along with” a false image of his school days he and his friends concocted to fit in with the prevailing culture of the time.

Kavanaugh seems to joke that while he drank beer in high school, and still “drinks beer,” he has never blacked out as a result and is sure that he “never sexually assaulted anyone.”

“My Calendar Shows All But Definitively That I Was Not There,” Kavanaugh Claims, in Clearly Absurd Rationalization With Obvious Flaw

Kavanaugh continues to cite the notations on his high school calendar as proof that he could not have assaulted Christine Blasey Ford, since there is no mention of “the group of people that Dr. Ford has identified.”

“Keep in mind that my calendars were diaries of sorts,” Kavanaugh says. He ignores the obvious fact that his calendars do not appear to be anything like the complete accounting of his activities that we know of, based on his own yearbook boasts of frequent, regular binge drinking.

Kavanaugh Falsely States That Ford’s Friend “Refuted” Her Allegation. She Did Not.

Later in his opening remarks, Kavanaugh claimed that Christine Blasey Ford’s friend, Leland Keyser, “refuted” her account of the party she was assaulted at by Brett Kavanaugh. In fact, Keyser has only said that she does not recall the event but believes Ford’s allegation.

“This is a Circus.” Brett Kavanaugh Ditches Prepared Statement, Rails Against Democrats Instead

The hearing has resumed. Brett Kavanaugh has been sworn in and had decided to not read his prepared statement but veers into a starkly partisan attack on the Democrats and the media, perhaps aware that his main audience is a president who has also been credibly accused of sexual assault. It is frankly hard to see how this is a good audition for a job as an impartial judge.

Among other things, Kavanaugh claims that the women who have come forward to accuse him of sexual assault and harassment are part of a smear campaign “fueled with pent up anger abut President Trump on the 2016 election.”

Nearly shouting, he also claims that the attacks on his character are “revenge for the Clintons,” a reference to his role in aggressively investigating Bill Clinton’s affair with Monica Lewinsky as a prosecutor on the team of independent counsel Kenneth Starr. “This is a circus,” he adds.

The former Republican operative continues, “this confirmation process has become a national disgrace. You’ve replaced advise and consent with search and destroy.”

Kavanaugh also stresses that a female friend of Christine Blasey Ford said that she did not recall being at such a party with him. He failed to note that the woman, Leland Keyser, also told The Washington Post that although she did not recall the party, she was close friends with Ford and she believes Ford’s allegation.

Outside the Hearing, a Handful of Kavanaugh Supporters but Far More Opponents Make Their Voices Heard

The hearing is now in recess, before testimony from Brett Kavanaugh begins. Supporters and opponents of Kavanaugh are in evidence outside the hearing room.

My colleague Akela Lacy shares some video of a lone Kavanaugh supporter screaming obscenities into the void outside the hearing.

Meanwhile a far larger number of opponents of Kavanaugh, including organizers of the Women’s March, are rallying on the streets of Washington.

Prompted by Hearing, Women Share Details of Sexual Assault

One remarkable result of the nationwide attention to Ford’s testimony on Thursday has been that sexual assault survivors have been coming forward to share their stories with family members and even C-SPAN.

Hints That Support for Kavanaugh May Be Draining Away

The hearing is in recess for lunch. Ford’s obvious credibility as a victim of sexual assault seems to be inflicting damage on the Republican willingness to press ahead with Kavanaugh’s nomination, according to Washington reporters.

There are also questions about the bizarre spectacle of the all-male panel of Republican senators on the committee watching mutely as their time for questions has been ceded to a female prosecutor.

Outside the hearing room, things do not seem to be going any better for the Republican senators.

A Message of Support for Christine Blasey Ford From Debbie Ramirez, Second Accuser

Shortly before the hearing began, a lawyer representing Debbie Ramirez, a Yale classmate of Brett Kavanaugh who claims that he exposed himself to her during a drunken dorm-room party, posted a message of support on Twitter.

The lawyer, John Clune, wrote on Tuesday that “Ms. Ramirez is ready to swear to the FBI under penalty of perjury,” and asked why the Republican-controlled Senate Judiciary Committee was not willing to accept her testimony.

Republican Prosecutor Raises Christine Blasey Ford’s Fear of Flying

Rachel Mitchell, the prosecutor from Arizona who is cross-examining Ford on behalf of the all-male panel of Republican senators, just brought up reports that Christine Blasey Ford has a fear of flying. Ford confirmed that she did but describes it as a fear that she copes with well enough to fly, albeit with some anxiety. It seems likely that Mitchell only brought this up as an attempt to somehow discredit Ford. Several of the prosecutor’s previous questions also seemed to be aimed at undercutting Ford’s credibility — like, for instance, pointing out that she had made some corrections to her written account during the polygraph test she took in August.

The issue of Ford’s fear of flying appears to have little relevance to the hearing, but it seems to have been a particular obsession among Trump supporters, including his son.

Christine Blasey Ford Offers a Lead to Investigators About Timing of Assault

Before a break in the hearing, Christine Blasey Ford recalled that she ran into Mark Judge about six to eight weeks after the assault while he was working at the Potomac Village Safeway. Someone, she suggests, could establish roughly when the attack took place by finding out when Mark Judge worked there during high school.

As Jane Mayer of The New Yorker notes, Mark Judge’s memoir of his days as a teenage alcoholic describe working at a supermarket.

My colleague Peter Maass explains that Judge’s out-of-print memoir, “Wasted” chronicles “a history of drunken aggression toward women.” As Peter just noted, Judge’s book suggests he only worked at the supermarket for “a few weeks.”

Christine Blasey Ford Can Never Forget “the Laughter” of Brett Kavanaugh and Mark Judge During the Assault

Asked by Sen. Patrick Leahy what she remembers most of the assault, Ford said: “Indelible in the hippocampus is the laughter, the uproarious laughter between the two — their having fun at my expense.”

This seems to underscore Lili Loofbourow’s observation in Slate that “The awful things Kavanaugh allegedly did only imperfectly correlate to the familiar frame of sexual desire run amok; they appear to more easily fit into a different category — a toxic homosociality — that involves males wooing other males over the comedy of being cruel to women.”

That observation resonated with other women watching the hearing.

Christine Blasey Ford Says This Is “Absolutely Not” a Case of Mistaken Identity

Responding to a question from Sen. Dianne Feinstein, Ford says that she clearly remembers that it was Brett Kavanaugh who assaulted her. Asked if there is any chance that this is could have been a case of mistaken identity, Ford says “absolutely not.”

With her voice wavering at several points, Christine Blasey Ford recounted her memory of the assault by Brett Kavanaugh in more detail than had previously been reported. She also spoke movingly about how the trauma had impacted her life and explained her hesitation at coming forward.

“I have experienced an outpouring of support from people in every state of this country,” Ford says. “Thousands of people who have had their lives dramatically altered by sexual violence have reached out to share their own experiences with me and have thanked me for coming forward. We have received tremendous support from friends and our community.”

“At the same time,” she continues, “my greatest fears have been realized, and the reality has been far worse than what I expected. My family and I have been the target of constant harassment and death threats. I have been called the most vile and hateful names imaginable. These messages, while far fewer than the expressions of support, have been terrifying to receive and have rocked me to my core.”

Ford also denies that she acted out of partisan political motives. “I am a fiercely independent person and I am no one’s pawn,” she says. “My motivation in coming forward was to provide the facts about how Mr. Kavanaugh’s actions have damaged my life, so that you can take that into serious consideration as you make your decision about how to proceed.”

One of the most distressing parts of Ford’s memory is the detail that she recalls Brett Kavanaugh and his friend Mark Judge “drunkenly laughing during the attack.” Writing in Slate, Lili Loofbourow observed that “one of the more shocking things” about the allegations made by Ford and Deborah Ramirez, Kavanaugh’s Yale classmate, “is the extent to which the woman being mistreated exists in a room where the men are performing for each other—using the woman to firm up their own bond.”

Feinstein Calls on Republican Majority to Investigate Other Accusations

Sen. Dianne Feinstein of California, the most senior Democrat on the committee, rejected Grassley’s criticism of her actions — in refusing to make public Christine Blasey Ford’s allegation before she agreed to put her name to it — and called on the Republican majority to investigate the three other accusations. She also called for the committee to compel Brett Kavanaugh’s high school friend, Mark Judge, to testify about the alleged attack on her, which Ford said he witnessed and took part in.

As Feinstein was speaking, another member of the committee, Sen. Amy Klobuchar, a Minnesota Democrat, tweeted a rebuttal to Grassley’s claim that there was no need for FBI to investigate the new claims of sexual assault and harassment against Kavanaugh.

Grassley Opens With Long Mea Non Culpa and a Freudian Slip

Sen. Chuck Grassley of Iowa, the panel’s Republican chairman, opened the hearing with a long attack on the Democrats for not raising the allegation earlier, and by expressing equal sympathy for both the accuser, Ford, and the accused, Kavanaugh.

Grassley also made what seems to be a Freudian slip as he stumbles through his written remarks, describing the hearing as an “opportunity to prevent her allegations.”

Grassley’s remarks did not go over well with observers who want more respect to be shown to a woman who has accused a powerful man of sexual assault.

The Full Text of Christine Blasey Ford’s Prepared Statement

As we wait for the hearing to begin at the top of the hour, here is the complete text of Christine Blasey Ford’s opening statement, in which she says that Brett Kavanaugh sexually assaulted her at a party when she was 15 and he was 17:

Chairman Grassley, Ranking Member Feinstein, members of the committee. My name is Christine Blasey Ford. I am a professor of psychology at Palo Alto University and a research psychologist at the Stanford University School of Medicine.

I was an undergraduate at the University of North Carolina and earned my degree in experimental psychology in 1988. I received a master’s degree in 1991 in clinical psychology from Pepperdine University. In 1996, I received a Ph.D. in educational psychology from the University of Southern California. I earned a master’s degree in epidemiology from the Stanford University School of Medicine in 2009.

I have been married to Russell Ford since 2002 and we have two children.

I am here today not because I want to be. I am terrified. I am here because I believe it is my civic duty to tell you what happened to me while Brett Kavanaugh and I were in high school. I have described the events publicly before. I summarized them in my letter to Ranking Member Feinstein, and again in my letter to Chairman Grassley. I understand and appreciate the importance of your hearing from me directly about what happened to me and the impact it has had on my life and on my family.

I grew up in the suburbs of Washington, D.C. I attended the Holton-Arms School in Bethesda, Md., from 1980 to 1984. Holton-Arms is an all-girls school that opened in 1901. During my time at the school, girls at Holton-Arms frequently met and became friendly with boys from all-boys schools in the area, including Landon School, Georgetown Prep, Gonzaga high school, country clubs, and other places where kids and their families socialized. This is how I met Brett Kavanaugh, the boy who sexually assaulted me.

In my freshman and sophomore school years, when I was 14 and 15 years old, my group of friends intersected with Brett and his friends for a short period of time. I had been friendly with a classmate of Brett’s for a short time during my freshman year, and it was through that connection that I attended a number of parties that Brett also attended. We did not know each other well, but I knew him and he knew me. In the summer of 1982, like most summers, I spent almost every day at the Columbia Country Club in Chevy Chase, Md., swimming and practicing diving.

One evening that summer, after a day of swimming at the club, I attended a small gathering at a house in the Chevy Chase-Bethesda area. There were four boys I remember being there: Brett Kavanaugh, Mark Judge, P. J. Smyth, and one other boy whose name I cannot recall. I remember my friend Leland Ingham attending. I do not remember all of the details of how that gathering came together, but like many that summer, it was almost surely a spur of the moment gathering. I truly wish I could provide detailed answers to all of the questions that have been and will be asked about how I got to the party, where it took place and so forth. I don’t have all the answers, and I don’t remember as much as I would like to. But the details about that night that bring me here today are ones I will never forget. They have been seared into my memory and have haunted me episodically as an adult.

When I got to the small gathering, people were drinking beer in a small living room on the first floor of the house. I drank one beer that evening. Brett and Mark were visibly drunk. Early in the evening, I went up a narrow set of stairs leading from the living room to a second floor to use the bathroom. When I got to the top of the stairs, I was pushed from behind into a bedroom. I couldn’t see who pushed me. Brett and Mark came into the bedroom and locked the door behind them. There was music already playing in the bedroom. It was turned up louder by either Brett or Mark once we were in the room. I was pushed onto the bed and Brett got on top of me. He began running his hands over my body and grinding his hips into me. I yelled, hoping someone downstairs might hear me, and tried to get away from him, but his weight was heavy. Brett groped me and tried to take off my clothes. He had a hard time because he was so drunk, and because I was wearing a one-piece bathing suit under my clothes. I believed he was going to rape me. I tried to yell for help. When I did, Brett put his hand over my mouth to stop me from screaming. This was what terrified me the most, and has had the most lasting impact on my life. It was hard for me to breathe, and I thought that Brett was accidentally going to kill me. Both Brett and Mark were drunkenly laughing during the attack. They both seemed to be having a good time. Mark was urging Brett on, although at times he told Brett to stop. A couple of times I made eye contact with Mark and thought he might try to help me, but he did not.

During this assault, Mark came over and jumped on the bed twice while Brett was on top of me. The last time he did this, we toppled over and Brett was no longer on top of me. I was able to get up and run out of the room. Directly across from the bedroom was a small bathroom. I ran inside the bathroom and locked the door. I heard Brett and Mark leave the bedroom laughing and loudly walk down the narrow stairs, pin-balling off the walls on the way down. I waited and when I did not hear them come back up the stairs, I left the bathroom, ran down the stairs, through the living room, and left the house. I remember being on the street and feeling an enormous sense of relief that I had escaped from the house and that Brett and Mark were not coming after me.

Brett’s assault on me drastically altered my life. For a very long time, I was too afraid and ashamed to tell anyone the details. I did not want to tell my parents that I, at age 15, was in a house without any parents present, drinking beer with boys. I tried to convince myself that because Brett did not rape me, I should be able to move on and just pretend that it had never happened. Over the years, I told very few friends that I had this traumatic experience. I told my husband before we were married that I had experienced a sexual assault. I had never told the details to anyone until May 2012, during a couples counseling session. The reason this came up in counseling is that my husband and I had completed an extensive remodel of our home, and I insisted on a second front door, an idea that he and others disagreed with and could not understand. In explaining why I wanted to have a second front door, I described the assault in detail. I recall saying that the boy who assaulted me could someday be on the U.S. Supreme Court and spoke a bit about his background. My husband recalls that I named my attacker as Brett Kavanaugh.

After that May 2012 therapy session, I did my best to suppress memories of the assault because recounting the details caused me to relive the experience, and caused panic attacks and anxiety. Occasionally, I would discuss the assault in individual therapy, but talking about it caused me to relive the trauma, so I tried not to think about it or discuss it. But over the years, I went through periods where I thought about Brett’s attack. I confided in some close friends that I had an experience with sexual assault. Occasionally, I stated that my assailant was a prominent lawyer or judge but I did not use his name. I do not recall each person I spoke to about Brett’s assault, and some friends have reminded me of these conversations since the publication of The Washington Post story on Sept. 16, 2018. But until July 2018, I had never named Mr. Kavanaugh as my attacker outside of therapy.

This all changed in early July 2018. I saw press reports stating that Brett Kavanaugh was on the “short list” of potential Supreme Court nominees. I thought it was my civic duty to relay the information I had about Mr. Kavanaugh’s conduct so that those considering his potential nomination would know about the assault.

On July 6, 2018, I had a sense of urgency to relay the information to the Senate and the president as soon as possible before a nominee was selected. I called my congressional representative and let her receptionist know that someone on the president’s short list had attacked me. I also sent a message to The Washington Post’s confidential tip line. I did not use my name, but I provided the names of Brett Kavanaugh and Mark Judge. I stated that Mr. Kavanaugh had assaulted me in the 1980s in Maryland. This was an extremely hard thing for me to do, but I felt I couldn’t NOT do it. Over the next two days, I told a couple of close friends on the beach in California that Mr. Kavanaugh had sexually assaulted me. I was conflicted about whether to speak out.

On July 9, 2018, I received a call from the office of Congresswoman Anna Eshoo after Mr. Kavanaugh had become the nominee. I met with her staff on July 11 and with her on July 13, describing the assault and discussing my fear about coming forward. Later, we discussed the possibility of sending a letter to Ranking Member Feinstein, who is one of my state’s senators, describing what occurred. My understanding is that Representative Eshoo’s office delivered a copy of my letter to Senator Feinstein’s office on July 30, 2018. The letter included my name, but requested that the letter be kept confidential.

My hope was that providing the information confidentially would be sufficient to allow the Senate to consider Mr. Kavanaugh’s serious misconduct without having to make myself, my family or anyone’s family vulnerable to the personal attacks and invasions of privacy we have faced since my name became public. In a letter on Aug. 31, 2018, Senator Feinstein wrote that she would not share the letter without my consent. I greatly appreciated this commitment. All sexual assault victims should be able to decide for themselves whether their private experience is made public.

As the hearing date got closer, I struggled with a terrible choice: Do I share the facts with the Senate and put myself and my family in the public spotlight? Or do I preserve our privacy and allow the Senate to make its decision on Mr. Kavanaugh’s nomination without knowing the full truth about his past behavior?

I agonized daily with this decision throughout August and early September 2018. The sense of duty that motivated me to reach out confidentially to The Washington Post, Representative Eshoo’s office, and Senator Feinstein’s office was always there, but my fears of the consequences of speaking out started to increase.

During August 2018, the press reported that Mr. Kavanaugh’s confirmation was virtually certain. His allies painted him as a champion of women’s rights and empowerment. I believed that if I came forward, my voice would be drowned out by a chorus of powerful supporters. By the time of the confirmation hearings, I had resigned myself to remaining quiet and letting the committee and the Senate make their decision without knowing what Mr. Kavanaugh had done to me.

Once the press started reporting on the existence of the letter I had sent to Senator Feinstein, I faced mounting pressure. Reporters appeared at my home and at my job demanding information about this letter, including in the presence of my graduate students. They called my boss and coworkers and left me many messages, making it clear that my name would inevitably be released to the media. I decided to speak out publicly to a journalist who had responded to the tip I had sent to The Washington Post and who had gained my trust. It was important to me to describe the details of the assault in my own words.

Since Sept. 16, the date of The Washington Post story, I have experienced an outpouring of support from people in every state of this country. Thousands of people who have had their lives dramatically altered by sexual violence have reached out to share their own experiences with me and have thanked me for coming forward. We have received tremendous support from friends and our community.

At the same time, my greatest fears have been realized — and the reality has been far worse than what I expected. My family and I have been the target of constant harassment and death threats. I have been called the most vile and hateful names imaginable. These messages, while far fewer than the expressions of support, have been terrifying to receive and have rocked me to my core. People have posted my personal information on the internet. This has resulted in additional emails, calls and threats. My family and I were forced to move out of our home. Since Sept. 16, my family and I have been living in various secure locales, with guards. This past Tuesday evening, my work email account was hacked and messages were sent out supposedly recanting my description of the sexual assault.

Apart from the assault itself, these last couple of weeks have been the hardest of my life. I have had to relive my trauma in front of the entire world, and have seen my life picked apart by people on television, in the media and in this body who have never met me or spoken with me. I have been accused of acting out of partisan political motives. Those who say that do not know me. I am a fiercely independent person and I am no one’s pawn. My motivation in coming forward was to provide the facts about how Mr. Kavanaugh’s actions have damaged my life, so that you can take that into serious consideration as you make your decision about how to proceed. It is not my responsibility to determine whether Mr. Kavanaugh deserves to sit on the Supreme Court. My responsibility is to tell the truth.

I understand that the majority has hired a professional prosecutor to ask me some questions, and I am committed to doing my very best to answer them. At the same time, because the committee members will be judging my credibility, I hope to be able to engage directly with each of you.

At this point, I will do my best to answer your questions.

Christine Blasey Ford’s accusation, that Brett Kavanaugh and his friend Mark Judge assaulted her when they were students at Georgetown Prep, a Catholic high school outside Washington, is the focus of Thursday’s hearing, but the Senate is also considering the claims of three other women who came forward this week with accusations of sexual harassment or assault involving Donald Trump’s nominee for the Supreme Court.

On Sunday, Ronan Farrow and Jane Meyer of The New Yorker revealed that a Yale classmate of Kavanaugh’s, Deborah Ramirez, wanted the FBI to investigate her accusation that Kavanaugh had exposed himself to her during a drunken dorm-room party.

On Wednesday, as my colleague Peter Maass reported, Michael Avenatti released a sworn declaration from a woman named Julie Swetnick, who said that that she had seen Kavanaugh and Judge “drink excessively and engage in highly inappropriate conduct, including being overly aggressive with girls and not taking ‘No’ for an answer. This conduct included the fondling and grabbing of girls without their consent.” Swetnick also accused Kavanaugh and Judge of spiking punch “with drugs and/or grain alcohol so as to cause girls to lose their inhibitions and their ability to say ‘No.” Kavanaugh and Judge, she said, were also present at a house party where she had been gang raped.

NBC reported on Wednesday that Kavanaugh was asked by Senate investigators about a fourth complaint, conveyed in an anonymous letter to Republican Sen. Cory Gardner of Colorado, in which a woman claimed that her daughter had witnessed Kavanaugh drunkenly assault a woman he socialized with in Washington in 1998, when he was a prosecutor for Ken Starr, the independent counsel who investigated President Bill Clinton’s sex life.

As news of the latest accusations broke on Wednesday, reporters observed “an intense conversation” in the Senate basement between Democratic Sen. Dianne Feinstein and Republican Sen. Lisa Murkowski, whose pro-choice stance makes her one of the potential swing votes against Kavanaugh, who has publicly criticized the Roe v. Wade decision.

Top photo: Christine Blasey Ford waiting to testify before the Senate Judiciary Committee in Washington on Thursday.